“Like standing on the edge of a mountainside. I can feel the wind stirring, lifting me up high. I was born into freedom. I was made to fly” – Catch The Wind, Bethel
I am officially a month into my studies at Hillsong College and I am constantly in awe of the goodness of God. It has honestly been an indescribable few weeks. Granted, the adjustment has been difficult, but there’s no denying that this is holy ground! It is so surreal being in an environment that honestly and truly wants to see you thrive for the sake of His Kingdom. I remember crying on my knees in Chapel thinking how crazy it was that this formed part of my timetable. That 3 times a week, space was allowed for me to do this. That my tutorial lessons included praying for people to receive the gift of tongues. That my lectures made me so excited to go home and sit with my Bible.
When I came into College, I had the idea that I was coming here to get eqquiped to continue building Church back in South Africa. In my head, I was just in varsity again. It was all great, but I wasn’t going to allow myself to make a home of it, because it was just temporary. I had made a decision, unconsciously, that I wasn’t going to be fully present because South Africa is still the final destination.
During a rather normal conversation I kept refering to Hillsong Stellenbosch as my “actual” Campus. And God immediately said “That’s not true, Hillsong Hills is.” Which was rather confusing because it’s not like I was unaware of the fact that I was now serving at our Hills campus. But I was reminded of being challenged to go “all in” during Orientation; that if I saw serving and getting involved as just a Practicum, I would get “Practicum results” and not the fullness of what God intends for this season. Side note: your practicum is where you’re assigned to serve during the week and weekend, of which your involvement in one of the services/shifts is assessed.
I hate to admit it, but I have such a fear of having to start again. A fear of not knowing what has the potential for permanency, and what could potentially be temporary. It has been difficult to be “all in” because I already know that I have a desire to go back to South Africa when I finish at College. But I hadn’t realised how much I was limiting God. Man! There has been such a freedom and so much blessing in staying whether or not it’s forever. In remiding myself that I don’t know what will happen next, and even if this is temporary, today I choose to fully immerse myself in what is before me.
I’ve always known that there is so much blessing in finding yourself immersed in God and fully engaging in the season you’re in, but only now am I finally understanding it. The idea of just abiding in Him. The idea that sometimes abiding looks very practical, because not everything needs a ceremonious ‘I’ll pray about it’. Because even choosing to be physically present has the capacity to bear much fruit. – I have seen more miracles, victories and progressions in the past month than I have in the past year leading up to College. Not many of them were big, but they were all necessary. All of them a very clear fruit of abiding in The True Vine.
“I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit. You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.” John 15:1-4 NKJV
You can only produce fruit if you are connected to the Vine. He prunes only the branches that already bear fruit. But, you can only bear more fruit if you allow the pruning to take place.
Sometimes pruning looks like letting go of your fear of wanting to know it all. Sometimes it looks like trusting the people around you. Sometimes it looks like building character.
But, sometimes it simply looks like opening up, so that you can catch the wind.
On our very first day, our College Principal said the following “If He could do what He needed to while you were back home, He wouldn’t have brought you here”
“I let out the sails of my heart.
Here I am.
Here You are.”